A Poem I wrote

She was pretty
And loved by all
Everyone thought she was perfect
No one ever saw
What was really going on
She always put up a front
Deep down she was hurting
Everything was going wrong
She thought no one could ever understand
She tried to cover up her tears
With all the make up she had
She put a smile on her face
To try to cover up how she was really feeling
Nothing she did made the hurt go away
Finally she had a friend
Who knew something was not right
And got the girl to confess
The truth
The friend told the girl
That she did not have to be perfect
That she could have real feelings to
This made the girl see
That she could start being true to herself
Now everyone knows she is not perfect
But she is still pretty
And still loved by all

20 things I am scared of

1. The Dark
2. Clowns
3. Spiders
4. Snakes
5. Big Dogs
6. Horses
7. Drowning
8. Big bodies of water
9. Heights
10. Losing a loved one
11. Being involved in a wreck
12. My daddy
13. God
14. Breaking a bone
15. Horror movies
16. Failing
17. Disappointing my parents
18. Broken glass
19. Porcelain dolls
20. Getting stuck on an elevator
    

Finals are coming up and I am stressed to the max. I have so much to do and it seems like I will never get done. Papers are due. Tests are coming up. What am I going to do! I know deep down that I can do it. Just somethings seem so over whelming. College is so much different from high school. In college you do not have someone holding your hand and guiding your way like you do in high school. In college you have to step up and make sure everything is done because the teachers are not going to be hounding you about it. Procrastination is a big thing in college. It is not a good thing but it happens. In high school you have the set schedule everyday with the same classes everyday. At college it is not like that. Nothing gets said to you about missing class at college like it does at high school. In college if you do not show up for a certain number of classes then the teacher just fails you. I really do like college though. It is a big change from high school. I feel like more of an adult in college. I know there are more responsibilities, but I think I can handle it. Now I am just hoping I can make it through these finals. If I can finish all this homework and study to make well on my finals, then I will be really happy!

A survey...I figured I would do something different

If you knew you had the right person, would you marry them today?
No, I am only 18 and a freshman in college. I am not ready for such a big step as marriage. I figured that out after being engaged my senior year of high school. I need to grow up some more, and experience a few more things before I get married.

What does the last text in your inbox say and who’s it from?
"Sad day :("-Big Red. I am moving from North Commons to West Courtyards this week. He says it's sad because I will not be around to hang out on the second floor anymore. I just will not be over in the lobby as much.

Were you born in the 90's?
Yes! 1991 to be exact!

Does anyone call you babe?
Yeah. Some of my friends do.

Is the last person that you had a conversation with a male or a female?
Male. It was Big Red actually. We were talking about me moving to West Courtyards.

Where were you at 9 AM this morning?
Sleeping! I did not go to bed until about four this morning. I needed my sleep.

Have you ever liked someone who all your friends hate?
Of course I have. At the time I did not realize why they hated him. Now that I can look back at everything, the reasons are quite clear.

What were you doing at 11 this morning?
Sleeping. I know it is quite sad. I was being lazy. I got up at 12:30.

Name people you wish you could fix things with?
I think I am pretty good with everyone. I can not really think of anyone I need to fix things with. I am good about apologizing about my wrong doings.

When you're getting ready for something, do you listen to music?
Oh yes. I love music. It helps to soothe me, but it also helps me get pumped up!

Are you a mean person?
I am quite the opposite. I tend to be too nice. Mean does not run in my blood. I can not seem to be a mean person.

How many arguments have you had with the last person you talked to?
Quite a few. Usually it is over stupid stuff. We stay mad at each other for a couple of days, if that, and then we are fine like nothing happened. We can not seem to stop being friends.

Waiting for something?
Oh yes! Christmas break. I think everyone is waiting for that too.

Do you feel like anyone is playing mind games with you right now?
I sure do not. If they are, then they are very good at keeping it covered.

Do you have the time by any chance?
6:08 p.m.

Have you ever thought you liked someone and then found out you really didn't?
I sure have. It was sad too. Because they liked me too, and when I found out I really did not like them in that way I felt really bad. I do not like hurting people's feelings.

Are you going to get hurt anytime soon?
Is that even a real question. How am I supposed to know. I mean I am quite clumsy. I trip and stuff a whole lot. I probably get hurt on accident sometime. It is pretty inevitable for me.

Anybody tell you they miss you lately?
My mother. She tells me that everyday now that I moved out.

Are you nice to people you dislike?
Yeah. I have a difficult time being mean to anyone whether I like them or not.

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
My momma. I talk to her everyday. Usually more than once a day.

How's your heart lately?
It is beating and pumping blood like it is supposed to. Therefore, I think it is in perfect condition.

Who can always cheer you up?
I have my select group of people. This includes my momma, my friends, and my Delta Zeta sisters.

What was the last movie you watched?
I know it was a Lifetime movie. I can not recall the title right now though.

Is there anyone you know that deserves to get slapped?
I am sure there are plenty of people that do.

Think back 2 months ago, were you happier then or now?
I think I am about equal. I am a really happy person.

Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
Big Red. We were talking about our Greek stuff.

Do you find trusting people easy?
Usually I do. Sometimes this comes back to bite me though.

Is there someone who you instantly smile when you receive a message from them?
Yeah there is. Because I know the messages always brighten my day.

Do you think relationships are even worth it?
The right ones are. I just have not found the right one that is.

Is it possible to be single and happy?
Yes it is. At least it is for me. I am single now and very happy.

Miss someone?
My momma. I miss not being able to just run in her room and talk to her.

What's a happy time you've had in the past week?
Last night. I was at the Delta Zeta Christmas party!

Does anyone completely understand you?
My momma does.

How did you feel last night?
It was great! I had a wonderful time with my Delta Zeta sisters!

Who was the last person you had a serious convo with?
My mother.

Do you think you have made anyone happy lately?
I hope I have!

Are you thinking about a certain person right now?
No. I am thinking about homework and finals!

Are you happier now or this time last year?
Yeah I think I am.

You're crying at 12 at night, you call?
Krystal my best friend/roommate!

How many people do you trust 100%?
There are a select few!

Love really is a beautiful thing, huh?
It is when you have the true real thing.

Can you recall the last time you liked someone a lot?
Yeah. It has been a little bit.

Where are you?
My dorm room.

Are you in a good mood?
I am! I got some exciting new about some stuff!

Anyone jealous of you or anything you have?
I have no idea.

Are you a difficult person, or are you pretty simple?
I am very simple. I do not like complicated things. I am very straight forward about everything.

Did you go through a lot in middle school?
Yeah. I did. I got picked on a lot.

Are you afraid to tell your true feelings?
To certain people I am. But to a few I can say whatever I feel.

What’s something that bothers you about girls?
Some have to be the center of attention ALL the time!

What are you excited about?
Break and the fact I am getting to get things rolling in my social chairman position I have in the Delta Zeta sorority!

What are you listening to now?
My television. i have no idea what is on. I just know I left it on.

Is there anyone you would seriously punch right now if you had the chance?
Can not think of anyone.

What woke you up today?
I just woke up.

Are you excited for next year?
Yeah, but I am excited for now too.

Are you texting anyone?
Nope. Not at the moment. I am busy doing homework.

The Florida vs Alabama Game

As a Florida Gators fan I was devastated about the game! I know both teams played their hearts out, and they gave all they had. I wanted Florida to win so bad. They are a great team, and I thought they could do it just like they did last year. Florida tried their hardest, I know they did. Tim Tebow lead them, and worked his hardest to get the victory. I guess it was just not their game. I know both teams are really good at what they do. I do not think the game was about which team is better, because obviously both teams are great because they were both undefeated up until this point. The game will be one for the history books I am sure.

The only thing that really makes me mad about the whole game situation, is the fact that all of these people are giving Tim Tebow junk for crying. Well let me see, it was his last championship game of his college career. He put everything he had into this game. Maybe he feel like his hard work was just not good enough. I do not blame him for crying. If Alabama would have lost, there would have been players from that team crying. I know there would have! I have seen big ole' high school football players cry because they lost a play off game. It is not because they are sissies or wimps, it is because they played their heart out. They gave their all, but they lost the game. I really think everyone needs to stop giving Tebow grief about crying. It's not a joke, and it is not funny.

Arguing

When the word argument comes up, I automatically think of proving a point. Argumentative papers in English class are about proving a point. It could be a negative or a positive point. One may write to prove their point in agreement with something, or one may write to go against a given topic. In high school I had to write an argument paper. I remember it was about music influencing children. I argued that it did not. I really like argument papers. To me, they are the best kind to prove one's point and share one's opinion with others. Some might agree while others disagree. As long as the paper is written well and addresses the audience properly, then the argument paper should be a good one. Some argument papers may discuss really hot topics such as politics. Others may discuss more low key subjects such as school cafeteria food. No matter the topic, the main goal of the paper is to prove a point. One expresses their opinion, and follows it up with facts and details.

In my world, arguing my point on paper is easier than arguing my point with spoken words. I feel like I can express my self more and get my opinions out more clearly when I write them down. When it comes to speaking, I tend to get nervous and tense up. This is another reason I like argument papers.

Sure when it comes to these kinds of papers, one must be precise. One must clearly state their opinions, and follow them up with facts. Good explanations are another key factor in argument papers. If one does not clearly explain what they are talking about, a reader may not get the full point of the paper. The writer must clearly explain what side they are on, for or against the topic, and clearly explain why they are on that side.

Argument papers can be really interesting. Once the reader really connects with the author, and sees where the author is coming from, then the reader can decide whether they agree or disagree with the author.

I went home

Well I went home for Thanksgiving break. Actually I had to go home a day early because the doctor told me that I needed to.

First off, let me talk about the drive. Oh my goodness! An hour and a half drive to my house. It might not sound like much, but when oone person has to make the drive it tends to get a bit long and boring. Nothing wrong with the traffic or anything. Just that long of a drive all by myself did not see too appealing. Anyway, so I made the drive. After awhile I hit an area where none of the radio stations came in clearly. Sadly, big blue the Explorer does not have a cd player; therefore, the radio is my only option when it come to listening to music. Listening to static for fifteen minutes is not something I would call fun. Finally, the radio came back and I was a little bit happier. I never thought the drive was going to end. A ninety minute drive seemed to drag on for years and years. I finally saw my exit, and man I was thankful. I knew after I turned off on exit 93 it only took fifteen more minutes until I would be home. The last fifteen minutes of the drive seemed to pass quickly, to my surprise. Finally, I pulled into my driveway.

I do not think I had ever been so thankful to be at home as I was at that moment. I was feeling so terrible, and driving did not make me feel any better. My mom greeted me at the door, and she helped me bring in all of my things. She put me in my old room. Of course she made me lay down, and not be able to do anything. Honestly, I did not mind one bit. The thought of just resting sounded magnificent. My mom came into my room, and we chatted for a bit. Then she had to cook supper. Of course I was not hungry, but she insisted on fixing me some soup. Reluctantly, I ate some of it. I had to rest in bed for a couple of days, but then I began to go stir crazy.

A few days of resting up, my mom finally let me go to the store with her. Who would have ever thought that I would have been so excited to see Wal*Mart. I sure was!

To make a really long story short, I had a great visit at home. I loved seeing my parents and my little brother. After awhile though, I knew it was time for me to go back to Montgomery.